I was the only son of my parents. One day, afterÂ my father left for work, a taxi pulled up to theÂ door, and my mother told me that we were goingÂ away! Nine months later my dad obtained custodyÂ of me and I went to live with his sister. I did notÂ know what â€˜separation and divorceâ€™ meant. I only knew it hurt. But thankÂ God, He looked down on that hurting, confused, troubled little six year oldÂ boy, and loved him.
My aunt took me to Sunday School where I learned verses from the BibleÂ such as â€œGod is loveâ€ â€“ but how could a God of love allow this to happen toÂ me? We sang â€œThereâ€™s a home for little children above the bright blue sky,Â where Jesus dwells in Glory â€“ a home of peace and joyâ€. God looked down onÂ that little boy who was longing for a happy home and questioning His greatÂ love. God loved him anyway.
I looked forward to my fatherâ€™s visits each weekend, and was upset when heÂ had to leave. By the time I reached my early teens, my thoughts and actionsÂ revealed what I really was â€“ a sinner and a rebel. God saw my frantic attemptsÂ to find happiness in a world that could not satisfy – and He loved me in spiteÂ of it all.
I dreamed that the Lord had come, and I awoke shaking. I realized thatÂ if the Lord really had come, I would have been left behind for judgment.Â Nevertheless, I went on as I was and He still loved me!
One day I looked into the deep dark waters of the harbour and thought, â€œIÂ would gladly throw myself in, if only all this misery would end.â€ It seemed asÂ though God said, â€œIf you died today,Â you would drop right into Hell.â€ I didÂ not want to go to Hell, and I knew IÂ was not ready to meet God.
I attended a series of gospelÂ meetings, where one of the preachersÂ spoke to me personally. I realized thatÂ he really cared for my soul, and thatÂ it was time I began to care about my soul too. He read verses showing that theÂ Lord Jesus had died for ME. At that critical moment, God brought anotherÂ verse to my mind. It was â€œHe that heareth my Word, and believeth on Him thatÂ sent Me, hath everlasting life, and shall not come into condemnation; but is passedÂ from death unto lifeâ€ (John 5:24). Godâ€™s promise was so real to me, I acceptedÂ it. I have peace and am ready to meet Him. I have His Word for it!
Gary N. Sharp
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